My #1 Prayer

Health for my children. It's of the upmost importance of what I NEED right now. I can't beg for it enough. My brain is emotionally drained from the stress and worry of things constantly wrong. Just so you can know where I am coming from, here is what we are battling.

Kyla- we all know she started off her little life in this world with a UTI and a milk allergy that was making her extremely sick. Fixed that problem only to take a little more time to fix her severe reflux problem with just the right medication. Happier baby then, but still has always just been a fussy baby which in itself is annoying enough. Around 4 mos. old, her eye started getting icky, icky. I assumed it was a clogged tear duct so did nothing about it, hoping it was just going to go away like it is supposed to. NOPE, still there. Had to get her into an eye dr. and it is in fact a clogged tear duct and she has been put on medication for it now. BUT if it has not cleared up in 6-8 weeks, which he says it most likely won't since it hasn't so far, we will have to consider putting her asleep so they can go in and flush it out themselves. In 5% of cases, they don't clear on their own. Of course, we are the 5%.

At 6 months, she started having SEVERE constipation. Just like Kinsleigh did/has. It literally started at the same time hers did, as soon as she started having baby food. Tried everything in the book. Nothing worked. Now have her on Miralax, which is not preferred for a baby this age, but it the ONLY way we can get her to go every once in a while. Now waiting on her referral to GI specialist. As of this past week, she has turned into the whine and cry all day long self again for what seems to be no reason. Went to the dr. today, because she had to get a flu shot anyway, and we are checking again for UTI just to be safe since AGAIN nothing else seems to be wrong. REALLY?!

Kinsleigh- Still working on figuring out her constipation problems. Went to GI specialist recently. Tried her suggestions. Still nothing. STILL on Miralax after 2 years. This will all eventually come to a close I hope, as a GI specialist gets to see that they have both displayed the same symptoms now. May have some kind of genetic thing going on. And I just can't wait to go to her 3 year appointment next week to discuss all the behavior problems we have been having with her and her somewhat peculiar quirks.

I need a break. And I need prayer. Because my heart hurts and I don't want to lose hope. I'm tired of crying every day because the burden is too large. I feel like I'm doing this all on my own. And I know I don't have to nor am I supposed to, but so many days it just feels that way.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings and know that I am going beyond my comfort zone to release all these feelings. I don't like to feel like a person in need. Knowing I have good friends that love and care and are in deep prayer for me gets me by. So thank you!